“Wizards well versed in
treachery and black magic came from the south and forced
the people from the land,” so begins the grandmother’s narrative
in Nervous
Conditions. The land of Rhodesia (Zimbabwe)
had become destitute for the natives after the invasion by
the Europeans. Grandmothers, particularly keen on imparting
cultural history and familial legends, became the Empire’s
immediate target in the war on cultural heritage.
In our story, the grandmother
informs the children gathered around of how she acquired
knowledge of the wizards. She "had heard that beings
similar in appearance to the wizards but not of them, for
these were holy, had set up a mission not too far from the
homestead.” The grandmother envisions an opportunity to present
to the “holy” ones, her son, since the “‘white wizard had
no use for women and children.” She would “endure and obey” if
only they would take him and “prepare him for life in their
world.” And the holy wizards accept Babamukuru into their
fold. He submits to the education offered
at the village missionary and, as a result of absorbing his
lessons so well, Babamukuru is
sent to study at the university in England.
The grandmother tells the
children that they are now witnesses to Babamukuru’s success. He
is a big man, head of the missionary school, owner of a home
and car. Oh, what a grand strategy! As evidence of his position
among the wizards, Babamukuru is
truly recognized as the one of the greatest men among the
Shona people, for he has transcended race!
And so ends the grandmother’s
narrative, (or not) a “truly a romantic story” for the young
narrator, Tambu, who now envisions
images of England and escape from the
homestead! She is deeply infatuated, not only with the message
of the grandmother’s story, but also with “the way her grandmother
told” it. Tactics are everything!
Tambu vows to emulate her
great uncle, Babamukuru. Even after Tambu is reminded by
her brother, Nhamo,
that she “is a girl” and after her father rejects her ambitions
to attend school, Tambu is determined to collect enough school
fees so she can follow in her brother’s footsteps and ultimately
achieve the success of Babamukuru.
Tambu writes that she remembers
how the maize plants grew under her grandmother’s care. “My grandmother,” she recounts, “had
been an inexorable cultivator of land, sower of
seeds and reaper of rich harvests until, literally until,
her very last moment.” What a powerful memory of the young
Tambu, working “side by side” with her grandmother, carrying out
a productive, valuable task for the benefit of the family
and community! Luckily for her, in the conqueror’s atmosphere
of Rhodesia, she has learned
how to hijack this memory for the manifestation of success!
Tambu begins cultivating mealies with visions of her uncle’s success overwhelming everything, including
family and friends. Never mind them: she lives with family
and friends in “peaceful detachment.”
Nhamo suddenly dies, but
there is no time to grieve. Besides, Tambu writes,
she felt “vindicated.” She became his substitute at the missionary
school.
Tambu moves to her uncle’s home in an upscale village. In
the big house, she adjusts to the awe-inspiring presence
of her uncle and his wife. Their daughter, Nyasha,
has recently returned from England where
she was educated. Tambu is eager to talk with Nyasha and
widen her knowledge of England,
but she is surprised to find an angry, sullen Nyasha who
refuses to talk with her parents! The younger Tambu is
taken aback by this ungrateful cousin. Nyasha’s mother
mumbles that her daughter has become “‘too Anglicised’” to
live her life in Rhodesia.
Both the mother and Tambu have
witnessed Nyasha’s absorption in D.H. Lawrence novels. The mother believes
the novels are the source of her daughter’s strange behavior.
Tambu isn’t
sure it’s that simple. While she admits that she did not
know how to read Nyasha’s narrative, she sensed that “there was something
about her that was too intangible for me to be comfortable
with, so intangible that I could not decide whether it was
intangible good or intangible bad.” Nyasha,
when she breaks her silence momentarily, informs Tambu that
she feels a “stranger” among her Shona neighbors.
Strange! Tambu isn’t deterred and vows to develop “in
the way that Babamukuru” sees fit so she, too, has the opportunity
to be educated in England.
In time, Nyasha moves from
reading D.H. Lawrence to thriving “on inconsistencies,” Tambu
records. She “liked
to chart them so that she could turn her attention to the
next set of problems in the hope of finding fundamental solutions.” Nyasha
becomes the mouse running the trend mill, going nowhere fast.
She succumbs to rage and lashes out at the closest
representative of her nemesis, Babamukuru. They
fight, physically drawing on their well-acquired reservoir
of hate, to kill one another. Afterward, Babamukuru,
whose consciousness is thoroughly saturated with Englishness,
admonishes the daughter’s resistance. In turn, the daughter
resigns to killing the stranger within by refusing to eat. Doctors
and psychiatrists barely save a Nyasha who screams about
being “trapped.” But in the atmosphere
of “peaceful detachment,” like that atmosphere Tambu experienced
on the homestead, we are assured that all will be normal,
again - maybe?
At the site of “organized
repression of the cultural life,” writes Amilcar Cabral, “we
find the seed of opposition, which leads to the structuring
and
development of the liberation movement.” Here is hope!
Tambu has been granted a
new message, one of resistance. This
message, not surprisingly, comes from Nyasha: “you
can’t go on all the time being whatever’s necessary. You’ve
got to have some convictions, and I’m convinced I don’t want
to be anyone’s underdog. It’s not right for anyone to be
that.”
It’s not right for anyone to be that - being whatever is necessary.
BlackCommentator.com Editorial Board member Lenore Jean Daniels, PhD, has been a writer, for over thirty years of
commentary, resistance criticism and cultural theory, and
short stories with a Marxist sensibility to the impact
of cultural narrative violence and its antithesis, resistance
narratives. With entrenched dedication to justice and equality,
she has served as a coordinator of student and community
resistance projects that encourage the Black Feminist idea
of an equalitarian community and facilitator of student-teacher
communities behind the walls of academia for the last twenty
years. Dr. Daniels holds a PhD in Modern American Literatures,
with a specialty in Cultural Theory (race, gender, class
narratives) from Loyola University, Chicago. Click
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